2007 no MORE!!!!!!!!- Or at least, I hope!!!

Ok, so about 2 weeks, I told you all that something from my past was brought back up. I had to attend to this situation and lets just say that I faced it head on........something bad almost happen, BUT I was able to get out of the situation in one piece! Hopefully I wont be haunted again because I don't want to relieve those painful memories of 2007 and I want to look forward to the future of 2008 and the years to come and what GOD has in store for me! So I want to say Thanks to my BFF who helped me before I had to encounter this situation and also when it was over! That's what BFFs are for!! I have the best BFF in the world!!!!! No matter what I do or say, my BFF accepts me Flaws and all!! We began being friends in 2000 at college and been friends ever since. Don't get me wrong, we had our share of falling out in college but we overcame that and I learned a lot about myself that she had to tell me! And I am grateful to her for being able to tell me when it made me mad and kind of hurt, but I got over it!!! And I can honestly say that she is a TRUE FRIEND!! Don't get me wrong, I do have TRUE FRIENDS that have been my friends since we were little, but not ONCE has she judged me like some of my so called, "TRUE FRIENDS." My so-called TRUE FRIENDS are not my friends anymore, they are more of my associates. So to all my TRUE FRIENDS out there and you know who you are, THANK YOU and I LOVE YA!!!!! And to my BFF, we will always be BFFs to the day we die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Follow-Up on School Blues

Ok so I attended my first week of classes last week. We did the general things, go over books, papers and when assignments were due. I TRUELY believe that this semester is going to be a better semester than the last. I do not have that many demanding things to do this semester. BUT this doesn't mean that I can slack up!! I am going to do best and end the school year right and give it all I got because the finish line is very near I SEE IT!!!!!!! Wish me luck and wish me well!! I may not be on here like I usually am, but I will keep you all posted on everything, especially when I am finished with all this. And oh yea on top of all this, there is a guy running around my neighborhood, molesting females and trying to sexually assault them. And I am moving at the end of the month. So I may not be on here for a while, but I will be back!!! WISH ME LUCK!!

WHY??????????

Remember when I said I wanted to leave 2007 in the PAST. I also said that it probably wouldn't be possible because somethings would resurface back up for me, both good and bad...........well something resurfaced and I feel like I am being HAUNTED in a BAD WAY!!!!!!! WHY???????????? I don't understand why this is happening to me!!!! I got a phone call today while I was at work and BAM!!! I am being haunted again by something that I had planned on leaving in the past, 2007 past!!!! I really don't know what is going to happen now that the situation has caught back up with me!! I don't want to relieve the moment or even think about it.....but I have no choice. I have to face this situation and everything that is going to come with this and pray that NOTHING bad happens!!1

On another note, I am somewhat sadden today. I was sadden before I stepped into my work building. I received some terrible news of a murder....I saw the murder on the television screen this morning and thought to myself, "WHEN ARE WE GOING TO GET IT TOGETHER?" The person who got murdered, I knew him. I knew his family and I am close to the person's cousin. I just don't understand why innocent people have to die that way. I couldn't imagine what the family is going through along with the persons parents. I don't know what I would do, if someone in my family was murdered the way the person was!!!! Its a sad situation for everyone..... This world we live in is a vicious world full of love and hate. It almost makes you scared to leave the house. That is why this year and the years to come, if I see them that long I am going to live life to the fullest!! I am going to TRY to not hold grudges or get into an argument with someone. Because you never know when your last day on this earth is going to be!!! I hope and pray that justice is served and the family finds peace within there hearts to forgive and God handle this situation.

I will keep you all posted on my HAUNTING!!!!!!!!

School Blues!

I have the school blues!!!! I am starting my last semester of grad school this week! I do not want to go back to school! BUT I am so close to finishing that I can see the finish line!! I have went to school straight through, no breaks in school at all. From high school to undergrad and from undergrad to graduate school with no breaks, NO NOTHING!!! I really feel like my brain is going to explode!! I hear people say all the time: "You can do it", "You don't have any kids", and "Your Young" but my thing is I have went straight with no breaks at all!! But I have a feeling if I did take a break, I would not go back!!! I really didn't have to go to Grad school, but I can not make any decent money with a bachelor degree in Social Work!! That is just not going to happen!!! So I choose to continue my education and my masters degree, but really I am burnt out on school!!!! So as I begin my last semester of grad school because it is SO DEMANDING, I am going to do my best and just keep telling myself....THE FINISH LINE IS NEAR!!!!!!!

New Year 2008

The year 2008 is right around the corner and there is so much that I want to leave behind in 2007. BUT I have a feeling that some of things that I did, whether they are good or bad will resurface back to me!! For the good things, that is great, but for the bad things...........well lets just say they need to stay in 2007!!!

Everyone makes New Years Resolutions each year, I have done it plenty of times, but this year it is going to be different. I don't stick to my resolutions that I make at all. So this year I am not going to make one! I know what I have to do and I know what I need to do. So I am going to do it, but it might take time and it also might take longer than a year to get it done, but trust me IT WILL GET DONE!!! Whatever I put my mind to, I do it!! But one thing I will say is that this year there is going to be a NEW ME! I am not putting up with anymore PETTY people in my life, I don't have time. I have way too much important stuff to be worrying about than dealing with PETTY people, I JUST CAN'T do it anymore!!! I am also going to stay more focused on the things that I need to and not let other things get in my way or try to stop me!!

There are other things that I will need to do, but I must say this, I am going to be a better: CHRISTIAN, DAUGHTER, SISTER, AUNT, NEICE, FRIEND, GOD-MOMMA, COUSIN, and whatever else I maybe to somebody out there in this world!!! But I must remember that without GOD, I don't have any of this and wont be able to accomplish this either!! So I end my last blog for the 2007 with my favorite scripture: I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHOM STRENGTHEN ME- PHIL 4:13

Happy Holidays!!!!!!!!!

I don't know if this is going to be a Happy Holiday or not!! The madness in the streets and the madness in the stores is driving me crazy!! Is it that hard to say "excuse me" when you bump into someone in the store?? I don't get it!! I always say excuse me when I accidentally bump into someone either in passing or walking. I can not wait for this RUSH to be over, because I feel like I want to explode on somebody!! But anyways.......I hope everyone has a safe and Happy Holiday!! I also wish you all the best this Christmas and get everything you all want and are with the ones you love!!

Friends

I have noticed that I have lost some of my friends. Those friends were my friends since I was little and now that I am "GROWN" it seems that life has taken us into different directions. It is a good thing in a way and then a bad thing also. It just seems like we are all going into two directions and now when I see them I just give a casual Hi and how are you. We really dont have conversation like we used to. It is sad because we use to be so close but I guess thats just how it is. I have friends now and we talk either everyday, every other day, or at least once a week. I can remember being little and we would write in our yearbooks FF (Friends Forever) but is that really true? I dont call everyone my friend....I may call them my associate until I get to know them better. I have very few Friends now and maybe that is a good thing but sometimes it can be a bad thing. I guess the losing of friends is all a part of growing up and I must admit that I am growing up because I do not do some of the things I use to do and maybe that is why they are not my friends anymore. But I look at it like it is time to grow up and act my age, not my shoe size!! I still love those "friends" and wish the best of them, but I am on a different road right now and I dont think it is best for me to reverse, switch lanes and go backwards!!!!!! So to all my "friends" that I have now and my best friend thanks for everything and putting up with me and my moods!! LOL LOL!!!!!!!!!